反反复复的心意，让我不知所措。 can you stop trying to make me explode?! i was ready to oblige the last time, even though i felt stupid-fied. but you changed your mind. now you want me to forfeit money and do something equally stupid. i really don't want to be rude, and i really do want to go on a holiday with you two. but this is really really not the way. the way you're doing things, there's no plan, just based on your whim and moment's desire. and you expect me to keep compromising? i'm sorry that's not possible. i could if i wanted to, but then there'll be low enthusiasm when the time comes round. what's the point????? 别让我每次跟你说话忐忑不安，害怕听到又另一个请求。如果真如此，那也太悲哀了。

and yeah, maybe i should stop reading. cause i suddenly realised that you actually know nothing, even though you pretend you do, in that annoying attitude of yours.